Fenin Fenin

yup.. I'm having migrain again and again and again. But I dun wanna talk bout it b'coz someone out there kindda worry bout me. Hmm.. Nak buat cm ne, dah bnde nak jadi. Redha je laaa. Hee.. So, I just got back from school and now its raining cats and dogs. But luckly I didn't walk in the rain and arrived home unwetly. Hee.. Fuhh.. Todays schedule was very pact. I skipped physics class just to finished my 'laporan' thingy. After that I got drama rehearsal  and have to present it tomorrow, Friday 29th. I walked from school as the rehearsal finished under the sun. *semalam in the rain, today under the sun pulakk. Hee :) So, yess. My head is spinning. 7 o'clock later I have tuition class, history and chemistry. wow ! And yet I still complain that my life is damn bored whereas I got lots of thing to do and to prepare. Asha Asha.. ish ish ish.. Hee.. So I think that's all. I wanna have a little rest and get ready for tuition. Guddie guyss. Bubbyee :D

Owh ya, about the drama. Asha pegang watak sbg seorang kakak yg tersangat lah garang. wuu.. HAHA ! Asha kakak yg garang ?? mmg tak laa. Asha boleh bawak watak uh, kalau adk Asha ada sekali. Baru la REAL ! Hee :)

Perjalanan Pulang ke Rumah Meredah Hujan :P

HAHA ! Ter-over lah pulak tajuk kali ni. Hee :)

So macam ni. I just arrived home from school ( wahhh, speaking balek ). The sky was dark and my bus was late. We, the four of us; Pika, Amir & Wafy got onto the bus and take our seat and bla bla bla.. 10 minutes later the bus arrived our home ( Pika & me ) but we wanna wait for the bus to make a U-turn sebab kiteorng malas nak cross the road. Hee :) The sky was really at a good condition until we got down the bus. Swushhhhhhhhhhhh ... the rain came down. grrr...  So kami pun tunggu lah kat bwah pondok yg sedia ada. Nseb baik lah ada pondok uh, kalau tak lencun basah kyup lerr. Tapi kami tak lama berada kat bwah pondok uh cuz pika kene balik, dia ada tuition. And nasib baik lah Asha ade pengang seluar kadet. Ye la kan, stay-back kne lah tuka bju. So, dgn ada nya seluar uh, berfungsi lah ia sbg payung pelindung hujan. Cewahhh :D And now its still raining and pouring. I just ate my Uphamol takut diserang penyakit MIGRAIN. 

I'm movin' on :')

Yeahh, I'm movin' on. It's hard to do what I wanted to. It's not easy to keep movin' on when your heart wanna stay where you are ryte now. What I'm bullshit talking about ryte now ? Hee.. IDK laa babe. I just wanna let this feelin' out. I'm sad for no reason. And my heart is painful inside. My jealousy is controlling myself. It's not because of my jealousy that makes me like this ryte now. I'm sad.. Whenever I heard a news/story from/about my ex-boyfriends. I don't agree if you guys says that's normal. My third ex-boyfriend just got clashed with his latest girlfriend and I'm not happy with it. They seems to be so 'okayy' with it. Compare when he ask for a break up, it's like the end of the world. Until today I can't forget bout him. The 'sweet and sour' of himself and what we have been gone through. I do hate him for what he had done to me. But then I admit, whatever happen at the past, is our own mistake. When I think about it again & again & again, there's no particular reason why should I hate him. Even ALLAH hate those people who hate each other. A friend of his tell me to forget bout him and start a new book. Meanwhile, a friend of mine tells me to forget whatever had happen in the past and start movin' on. "You have a bright future for your own self. Concerned yourself." Thankss for the support Boo. I appreciate it so much ! Bout my fifth ex-boyfriend, he deleted me totally in his life. And that's common ! I don't care actually because I know he didn't even care bout me at the first place. You know, you can called me a stupid girl because I couldn't choose a ryte person to 'own' me. Above all, I'm trying my very best to be 'a person'. 

P.S.

To all my ex-boyfriends, thanks for trying to make me feel like I was the only one. Your 'love' wasn't good enough for me and you're just using me for your own. Good that I realize now rather than when its too late.

P.P.S.

When I give you my heart, take a gooooood care of it. It's very fragile. When you break it, don't even think to fix it.

P.P.P.S
I love you :)

Miracle

I couldn't say much ryte now couse my heart is burning. Seriouslyy. Why they didn't see their mistake ? And always blame it on others ? grrr.. I couldn't help my mouth from insulting others. Arrghhh! Whatever I'm saying ryte now doesn't have anything do to with the title. So sorryyy..

Wahh, dah maju !

HAHA ! Horaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy ! Asha dah install Google Chrome ! HAHA ! Biarlah korang nak kata Asha batak or tak peka or whatever sebab dah rmai yg start guna Google Chrome. Asha je yang dah ketinggalan zaman (AAK-Ada Aku Kisah ?). Yang penting skrng ni, Asha dah berjaya ! Yeyy ! Tepukk la sikit. Haha :P Lepas ni Asha nak tukar from Windows XP to Windows 7. Nak jadi up to date la kononnye. Hee :) Then, Asha nak tukar lappy pulakk :D (entah boleh entah tidak). Tak kira, sampai satu saat nnti, Asha tetap nak tuka lappy sbb lappy yang Asha pkai sekarang ni, button follower semua blog tak appear. Tension uh ! Hmphh.. Tak pe Asha, sabar. Kesabarn membawa keberkatan. Ceeewaaaaahhh ! :P

The Others

Heyy, it was about 5am in the morning of 21st April and its a thursday morning. I was awake becouse of my alarm but it was too early for me to take my morning shower. so, I just lying down the bed thinking of the pain in my haed that I'm having. My eyes was closed but my mind is wild open. Suddenly I heard a paper knife sound. It sounds like there's someone who's playing with it. At first I thought it was my dream untill I heard it one more time minutes after that. My mind was thinking that my dad is doing his work so I decided to see on him. As I opened my door, I was suprised to not see what I wanna see. My dad wasn't at me or my lil brother's studying table where I thought he was. Then, I checked the living room. As I was at the half of the staircase I can see that the light was'nt even on. So of course my dad isn't downstairs. Later on I decided to wake my mum as it was nearly 6am. I knocked on their door. Then I knocked again untill my mum answered it. My heart was saying that, if my dad is doing his work inside their room, he would be the first to answered the door. Clearly, there's no one playing with the paper knife.
So, who was it ?



After I got back from my tution class that finished at 9pm, I slept in the car on my way home cuz I'm deadly sleepy and hungry at the same time. When I reached home, I help my dad to download our groceries from the car and bring it straight inside. After that, I had my dinner. It was OTAI burger and it was supremely delicious ! Then, I helped my mum to wash the dishes. When I'm washing all those plates, cups, etc I heard someone footsteps that running in place ( berlari setempat ). That couldn't be my dad's because he's still eating. And it wouldn't be my mum's because she's at the living room talking with my neighbour. If it was my brother, it couldn't be him because he's inside my parents' room. Their room is above the living room. If the sound is from my brother it could have been from my room or his. The sound that I heard is quite loud.
So, who was it ? 

Yey !

Yahooooooooooooooooooo ! I have changed the templates, layout and also the background. Unfortunately, I don't like the font and I dunno how to change it. Seriously. I need help but I asked too much already. Owh, by the way, this layout I got it without asking ! Hee.. :) I did ask a lot for a different layout and something unusual. But I got nothing. This, I dunno what's amazing bout it but I'll try to love it ! HAHA ! so, how many rating can I get for this ?

wuwuwuwuwu

HAHA ! Biyy, that's for youu. I alwyas wanted to hear you making that sound. Hee :) When you're sad, you cry like that. It make me giggle all the time when you say, wuwuwuwuwu.. bhahahahahahaha... :D
Biyy, you make me smile. Its hard to find a friend like you, seriously. You remind me things that I always forget and keep on forgeting about it. Hee :P Sorry.. You advice me not to do this and not to do that. You gave me your precious heart so I can 'live'. What else could I ask more from you biyy whereas I got 'everything' ? You made a change in my life every single dayy :D Thankss Biyy ♥

ZH :D

So, hari ni sy nak ckap pasal 'awak'. Khas untuk awk. Hee :) Disebabkan awk tak pham bahasa omputih, sy jadi ank melayu jati pulak kali ni. Speak malay.. HAHA ! Hm, hri tu sy ada tulis kat blog pasal senyuman awk yg mneggoda tuh ( awk yg ckap cm tuh :P ). Ingat tak masa first time awk senyum kononnya awk tego sy kat kantin tuh ? Walaupun awk tuh pakcik, jgn kata awk lupa pasal tuh. And awk ingat tak yg bru bru ni sy jumpa awk kat kiosk pusat sumber uh. Then sy tego awk. Sbb hri tu awk ada kata yg kalau sy berani tego awk, awk akn tego sy haaaaaaaaaaaaaaari hari. kn ? Awk kne tunaikan ape yg awk ckap, kalau tak, tu da kire mungkir jnji aw. Haaa.. And awk, sy tak jealous la tgk awk ngn 'penolong' awk tuh. Cuma kekadang je bile dia mengedik ngn awk. HAHA ! Tp kn awk, sy tak kisah pun kalau awk ni, in a relationship. Sy tak kisah lngsng asalkan 'gf' awk tu tak kisah awk kwn ngn sy. Kalau dia ta bg, sy pun tak peduli asalkan sy happy. :D Tu je la awk, sy tak tau nak ckap ape lg. nnti kalau ada brita sy story disni ye pakcik ? Hee :P

I wrote something important just now

Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa D': Blogger jahaaaaat. Penat au tulis memanjang pastu dia tak publish. Grrrrrr.. Rasa mcm nak mkn je blogger ni tau. Ggt kangg. Haha :D
So, ape jd hari ni ? Let me see.. I go to school as usual, talk in class while the teachers are teaching..like usual. Eat when its recess time, laugh like I was born yesterday. HAHA :D Nothing much I guess. Owh ya, The Prince Charming ! I talk to him today ♥ :) He told me once that if I'm brave enough to walk towards him, he'll talk to me everyday. Let's just see if that happen. Besides him, hm.... I'm hungry ryte now actually. I ate school burger this morning and its like .... I'm just grateful that I ate something this morning rather not eating at all. Haha.. And I haven't ate anything for lunch and now it's 6:30 pm. grrrr..

P.S.

Biyy, I miss youu :'(

I'm BORED !

I'm so fucking damn bored. If today happens everyday I'll be fatter. Seriously. Maybe I was wrong to include food in my T&C on taking care of my brother. Yesterday, I told my mum to prepare food if she want me to take care of my lil brother while she and her husband are out. So she did. She left us home alone with lots and lots of food. It's quite funny because I'm the one who's eating much more compare to him. Whyy ? I'm not hungry at all. And iI dunno why I ate it. Can somebody explain ??
And I dunno why I'm bored sedangkan I've got lots of work to be done. Instead of doin' my folio thingy, I end up edit my existing picca and listen to music. Why am I such a lazy bum ?? Arghhh !
And owh ya, someone promised to teman me today. But unfortunately, he turn me down. He broke my heart. Owhhh... HAHA ! :D

Leo-schaa

Hee :)
I'm proud of my date of birth. You know why ? Because that is my mum first car plate number. Yeahh.. And it is still the same untill today. That is just not it. Recently my dad install the new unifi and a new astro tv kindda thing. Owh ya, it is not astro its telekom ..? And it has MUTV. Manchester United TV !! Can you believe that ?? Haha.. Err, what was I saying ?? Owhh, and so he upgrade a new house phone with a new number. And guess what, the last 4 digit is my BIRTH DATE !! Haha :D How lucky I am to have that. Owh, I just remembered, my ex bf uses my 4 digit birthdate as his bank account password. I don't know if that's true but he told me that. Hmm...

I'm happy to be with you

Dear,
I'm so happy that God met us. Before this my life was like hangging on a ... I dunno. You're a someone to me right now. Believe that. You don't need me to remind you every day. Because I know you knew that.

Dear,
I've open my heart for you. I let you know me more or even love me more. I trust you in some kind of a way but I just couldn't say it. I hate trusting someone when it turns out negatively. I'm sorry if I offense you somehow. But you know why I'm like that right ? And I hope our FRIENDSHIP will last longer. I'll always remember your nasihat where you once said, 'A women are worthy to be guarded. ... Although with someone else, I'll be smiling from the sidelines' and 'I've changed something in a many people's life. So that the person in the future can benefit for it.'

It touched me whenever you says that. :)

I LOVE YOUU DEAR..

Tuesday

I was feeling a little bit moody this morning for no reason. Feeling so lazy to go to school or even walk to my class. But then, I'm grateful that I was cheered up by a smile. A smile that's hard for me to forget. :)  As sun rises on top of my head, dugaan was there for me. I lost something that meant something for me. I lost the trust towards him and I lost something that I own all this while. Yeahh.. This is the balasan I get for skipping history class. I believe that and I believe Allah did that for a reason. Its a MYRRACLE when HE sent me an angel to make sure I went home safely. Hee :)

So, three things happen to me today.
Firstly, the apple of my eye smiled to me. :)
Secondly, I skipped history class and got punished on the spot.
Thirdly, I now know who's my friend(s) and who are not.

Jealoussy

Jealousssy..
Most of us would be jealous when something that we want, we didn't get it, aitte ? But probably most of us jealous when something that we wanna own it forever, is someone else's. Its like the person that you love the most besides your family member belong to someone else and you noticed that he/she is happier to be with that someone rather than yourself.

Your bestfriend for an example. He/she was the greatest bestfriend you ever had. But one day when a person enter the life of the both you, somehow it disturbs the relationship. It happen to me 2 years back. But I've to admit that it wasn't only 'the other person' fault, mine as well. It was just a bestfriend relationship but we fought among each other. I'm a little bit childishh at that time and a little bit today. Hee :)  At that time I don't know what actually happened. But we forgive and forget about it. So, back to the jealous part. Even bestfriend can fight because of jealoussy, not only among boyfriend/girlfriends. But what I'm trying to say is, bestfriend is a person that we share everything with 'em. So, its not "akward" that you and her/him can fight with the third party because of jealoussy. Hm, actually I forgot bout what I wanna share here. HAHA ! :D

Recently, I've made a bestfriend relationship. Through that relationship, I was so jealous to know how he appreciate his girlfriend. His girlfriend was sooo lucky. Unlike me. But I can't deny that I'm lucky enough that I've met him. He is the one and only guy whom wanted to "be with me". Everybody knows that I'm a strong jealous girl. Yeahh..

So guys, how can we prevent from being jealous ?

HOMEWORK !!

Homework. That's my wrost nightmare. Why ? Whyy ? Whyyyyy ? Arghh.. I hate homework. Byk btul kerja sekolah yg tak siap lagi. Haduyyy. Ini baru kat sekolah. Belum masuk universiti lagi. Kalau mcm ni la gayanya, tak de harapan la nak pergi blaja jauh jauh kat london tuh.

HAHA ! Harapan tnggi usaha tak de, cm ne la Asha ni. Hiyaaa.. Sibukk sngat skrng ni, presentation la, powerpoint la, kertas mahjong la. Adehh.. Ada sesiapa nak tolong ?? Hee :)

Owh ya, yg superman kat sebelah tu Amri nmanya. He's a public figure. He's kindda cute kan ? :D And I saje guna picca dye because ada London Clock Tower kat blakang tu. Next, is me pulakk :D

What kind of girl do guys like ?

Guys are very visual creatures (bless them) so of course they'll mainly go for the pretty girls first. Mind you, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Some guys might think you're hot, some won't. But that isn't enough to have them stay with you. They'll appreciate a good sense of humour (but don't laugh at all his jokes), some independence (don't be clingy*), a life of your own (means you're interesting).  Guys like girls that is knowledgeable. I'm afraid to say nerd. And just be true to yourself. Whatever personality you have is bound to be attractive to someone so go out, meet people and find that person(s)!

*cling means to hold on tightly to somebody/something.

I saw an angel right infront of my windows

Hee :) The title is a little bit catchiyy huhh ? I didn't saw any angel infront of any

windows. But I met him ! :) He knows what stored inside my heart that kept it to myself for so long and he knows whats my desire are. For the first time, someone had open my heart and eyes at the same time. As for him, he agreed with something that everyone denied and left me alone fighting for the truth. He's not my lover and we're not in cloud 9. He's trying his best to help me change my life for a better future and I owe him a lot on that. Although he's someone else property, he knows how to handle things right. I'm touched. Because finally someone wanna be a part of my life as a bestfriend. If only everyone knows what bestfriend means, I'd have plenty of 'em right now. I believed that this is God's Gift. Setiap pertemuan, ajal dan maut semuanya ketentuan Ilahi. And I believed that this is meant for me in this world. Allah had listen to all my prayer but He didn't fullfill it on the spot. Maybe I know that He have something much more better to give than what I asked for. Thank You Allah. Thank You Allah for giving me the chance for changing by giving me the opportunity to meet your angel from heaven perhaps*.

*I don't really know whether his an angel or just a human. I'm just guessing.

Asy, I know that you're able to read my mind. Read it when I say, "I'm okay." :)